Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Saturday, 7 June 08,
She went for her CCA. Just asked her to be careful and nothing else? Meet Millie and Zishen at Yewtee for breakfast but both were late? LoL. Didn't mind about that. Even there's nothing much for us to do after breakfast. I enjoyed the presence of them being around me. ^-^Went over to Admiralty and waited for her to arrive as she's meeting me. Millie went off to meet her boyfriend shortly after we settled down at MAC. So it's left with me and Zishen. LoL
She reached Admiralty shortly and I brought her to my house. Cuddle her to sleep and woke up around 6PM. Went over 768 to have our haircut. After her was my turn and I saw her sms while my hair was being cut. Paid for the hair cut and once we exit the salon I asked who was she replying her sms to. She said:
Jos: Ruisen lo, he ask me where am I. Told him I was having my hair cut with you. He then replied sian. I ask him why eh? He said everytime you go out with bf I become moody.
Ed: LOL! Crazy ar?
Jos: Dunno and don't care? bleh. I ask why again. He replied I don't like you going out with your bf.
Ed: LOL! Really crazy. Don't go out with me then go out with who LOL.
Jos: Ya la. Siao 1. I reply him hahahahahahah. Then no reply liao.
My heart was like :" WOOOHOOO !! SO DUMB !! HE MADE THE WRONG MOVE!! WAHAHAHA !! " Though I was evil saying like that but YA ! HE'S DUMB !
After buying an orange tee for myself and a red tee for her, we went for dinner at Ichiban. She did nagged at me for wasting money eating all this but at least I know she enjoyed it? Send her home after that and somehow.. I'm looking forward to tomorrow church camp . =D
Sunday, 8 June 08,
Went to the church camp in the afternoon meeting up with Jacky and Kristine before heading to the JC. Once reached, Jacky left us to Sinman and Kel to do preparation for his performance later in the lecture hall.
Did abit of worship and praise song and such. Had lunch after that. Found out that Kristine is a comfortable friend to chat with. Went out of the school to have our lunch which is somewhere a few minutes walk away.
Next thing when we're back to the JC, we head toward the lecture hall. Saw alot of performances and they all did a great job, especially Jacky's beatbox with a rapper which I did catch his name. Great performance sall ! XD
Gonna skip the talk about the dinner as it screwed up my mood alittle. -_- Zzz Next was the camp fire. Wasn't that high because the speaker's volume was very soft. The fireball that slided down from the 3rd floor didn't light up the pit. Disappointed was the word to cover most of the stuff. After camp fire, the next time I know we're waiting outside the Hall, waiting for them to open the door for us to collect our belongings and head home. Kristine did a very cute sound which is stuck in my head.. Something like PuuuuChi ~ ? LoLs. Super cute voice.
On the way home, I phoned her. She told me lots of stuff on what happen and all but when it was Woodlands, Kel and Sinman alighted. Of cos I would say good bye to them and thank them for the great time. But somehow I didn't ask her to pause her conversation before I said Good Bye to Kel and Sinman. She got pissed b'cos I ignored what she said. I did ask her to repeat herself but ended up she didn't want to share anything. No matter how hard I tried, she didn't want to share anything. And finally we hung up. Phone Kristine and told her what happen and she was like , err chill man, cool down lol.. Thanks anyway.
After I'm done with my bathing, I gave her a call again asking is she tired or not. Chat for awhile and she decides to sleep. So greeted her good night, hang up and switched on my com not knowing what I'm gonna do with it. Awhile later, she was back online and said she couldn't sleep. Since my brother was still awake, we 3 of us played gunbound -_-
While we're in the game for quite sometime. She asked me some question in the game chat.
Jos: Mao, that day you go Zishen house did u said something like don't put in too much into a relationship, later end up like me ?
Ed: no? I did said something like that but it was , don't put in too much into a relationship because if your partner don't responds to you, you'll be hurt. I told that to Ziping.
Jos: Are you drunk that day?
Ed: No? I only drank 1 bottle of long island tea and 1 cup of volka absolute. Why? How you get to know all this?
Jos: Ruisen thought we broke up cause Zishen's cousin tell him that day you go his house drink 3 cups of volka got drunk and said those things.
Ed: No? I only had 1.
Jos: He can't be trusted. LoL
Ed: Who? lol . Tell me on the phone later.
Jos: k.
So we continued to game for awhile and I phone her after shutting down my com. Wanting her to give me a clearer picture of what happen , I asked her.
Ed: what happen?
Jos: Ruisen thought we broke up cos Zishen's cousin tell him that day you drunk and said those things.
Ed: LoL? How can I get drunk? Only 1 cup Volka 40% and long island tea 8% nia. I still walked home after that. haha
Jos: Ya. Only 40%. Somemore 1 cup only, not like I never see you drink before and I know my ah mao won't so easily get drunk de lo. I got a mouth to ask. They think I stupid. Anyhow say things like i'll believe, think I 3 years old ar.
Ed: LoL . Then what Ruisen say now?
Jos: He say the friend want to hai him, give fault information. That guy cannot be trusted. Infront of Ruisen he talked about you. Infront of you, he talked about Ruisen.
Ed: 2 headed snake ma.
Jos: He cannot be trusted.
Ed: Ruisen also cannot be trusted somehow. Once he heard the raw news info tat we broke up, he straight away ask weather you broke up already or not.
Jos: Aiya don't care. I told him no such things. Maybe to him like 1 year plus where got so easy break up.
Ed: You won't know your suitor? LoL
Jos: Aiya I don't trust him that much also.
Somehow I feel she's losing trust that she gave Ruisen. In my heart was like :" O YEA BABY !!!! " It's stupid but.. Thats how I felt ? LoL.
Monday, 9 June 08
Nothing much about FYP. TOTALLY BORING. Played psp, sleep, yawn.. What else? LOL. After school I went over to her house for dinner and Causeway point after dinner because she wanted to eat sashimi sushi from Ichiban.. Asked my bro and sis along but only my bro came. Went to buy the sashimi sushi, visited her dad's shop and went to Power 9.
She wanted to pierce the top of the ear which I used to have. Ask her to go ahead if she wants to but she said she's scared. Duh~ Since she's afraid, as a boyfriend I should accompany her ma. Then she like okay, you pierce first? So I asked the jiejie there to pierce back the same hole which I used to have.
PIAK.
There. After that she told me she don't want to pierce -_- Zzz Somehow I felt that I got pierced for nothing.. She blew the wound for me and asked does it hurts? Smiled and asked her back, What do you think? LoL
Had a little chat with her while we're on the train sending her home. Greeted her good bye and all. Left the place and head home. ^-^
Still praying everyday that nothing will happen to her and she don't fall into the lies of her suitors.. Well shall stop here. It's lengthy enough LoL..
Labels: Prayed nothing will happen...
Posted at 8:46 AM
Friday, June 6, 2008
Thursday, 5 June 08,
When to school for FYP. Bored tracing the circuit. The more I trace, the more I get annoyed as the lines are starting to go all over the board which I cannot find where is it linking to. -_- ZzZ
Read her blog and noticed she posted photos she have taken of friends in ITE. Telling myself it's okay and tried to cool down but my mind starts to run wild.. Thinking that for our relationship of 1 and a half years, we've taken less then 10 pictures together. She don't take pictures of me nor ask me to take photos. Even I asked her to, she'll reject me. EVEN if taken, she won't post it up anywhere.
In the blog, she wrote she actually wanted to donate blood because don't what had trigger her to do so. Heard from her that is Ruisen who wanted to donate and asked them along I guess. SO the whole group go along. Ended up only Ruisen can donate as they're all under age. She took photo of him while he's donating blood.. It might be no big deal to people reading this but it's threw me off a little. Felt jealous that she spends more time with friends, treats them more importantly . All she does is to blog about her friends and herself. NON about me. NON ! Telling myself it's okay and I spread my sadness to Minkuan.
Told Minkuan and all he say was:" Why go think? Since you know you'll get upset reading it. Then don't read it. Now I tell you what I see. She wants the trust from you but ain't doing any action/ moves to make you trust her. AND when things go out of hand and you wanted to solve it, all the blame goes to you because YOU DON'T TRUST HER ! Why lead such an unhappy relationship. If you cannot take it, then let her go. If you feel you can improve this relationship, then tolerate until you cannot take it, tell her. If she feels it's no big deal and insist there's nothing wrong. Not putting at least some effort to have a heart to heart talk nicely to solve it. THEN whats the use of keeping a girlfriend who don't even care how you feel? We told you to wait and see, but you keep wanting to see immediate effect. Just wait and see. You'll know what to do when things happen." To me he's telling me something like, if you want to save this relationship, why not give it your best shot and do all you can! But all I can do is to wait and see...
Went off at 4PM to meet Minkuan as he wanted to buy a phone without camera. Went 888 to get the phone after eating noodles. That was around 6PM when we're done buying the phone. Only after eating the noodles, THEN he tells me that he's meeting his friends 7PM at Cine to EAT AGAIN ! WTP?! Rushed to his house to change because he wanted to. The weather was kind to us raining heavily only after we reached his house for less then 5min .
Reached cine and we had Shokudo (Mk's treat) for our dinner. Walked around Orchard after that and ended in HMV. That was around 9.15PM when she sms and said she's tired. So gave her a call and she told me alot of what happen in school today. Was glad she told me all of those? Talked for quite sometime and hang up after saying good night to each other.
On the way home, we played DJ max2. I am the weakest link -_- ZzZ Got trashed just like a trash. Da bao Mac for Ziping and brought alcohol to his house. Slacked till 12.30AM and bus-ed home.. That was the last night to see Minkuan as he's going to the remote island the next morning for NS. LOL! Hope he'll be alright there and I look forward to our next chilling session.
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A)people who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs . B) tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. these people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. continue this game by sending it to other people.
1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Shock, stun, disappointed etc. Will give her my blessing and let her go. Most probably will undergo depression.
2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
With great earning power and a family. Including her of cause. =/
3. What will your dream wedding be like?
Non of what people seen. Wanna make my wife feels special.
4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
I don't know myself..
5. What's your ideal lover like?
My present girlfriend with a improved character. Give me more attention, filled me with all her love whole heartedly and faithful ? Draw a clear line with guy friends?
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Of cause to be loved by some1. But loving someone wasn't that bad if your parnter is worth it and she appreciates you.
7. How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
Always, if she can be trusted. Why not wait since it's your true love.
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Just be by her side since I can do nothing about it.
9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Some little things she does that made me upset alittle.
10. Is being tagged fun?
Okay okay lo..
11. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
Dunno. I see nothing yet..
12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
Family, Her and friends.
13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
A person who cares to tag.
14. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
Married but poor.
15. What's the first thing you do every morning?
Open my eyes.
16. Would you give all in a relationship?
Yes I would. 99% of my heart. Cause I still need 1% to keep myself alive.
17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
That wont happen. I'm not a bastard who pick between 2 girls.
18. What type of friends do you like?
Friends who cares for my feelings and all. Share burden with. Use and abuse. =x
19. What type of friends do you dislike?
Who dont pays attention to you when you talks to them. Zzz. Backstabbers. Twin headed.
Tagged by : Demi
Labels: Thank guys.. alot.. Memorable times..
Posted at 10:51 AM
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Friday, 30 May 08
Forgot what happen on Thursday. Friday was boring due to the FYP. Tracing of the stupid circuit from the stupid micro-mouse.
It's the length of just my pencil duh ! If I continue tracing, I'll become Pa Jiao one day. After school, meet up with her for dinner. Reached her house and I hide the Pokke under her pillow without her noticing. Went for a walk instead of a dinner at Yishun and walked around North point. Meet up with Minkuan at Khatib after I sent her home and went for cell group at Sinman house. After Cell group, I received a sms from her saying she's going to bed and asked me to send 3 messages to her. 1) on the way home 2) reached home 3) going to sleep. Didn't replied her but gave her a call instead. She was on the bed she said. Hoping she would say thanks because she found the Pokke on the bed but she didn't even find it. Told her there's a Pokke on the bed but her reaction was like :" Orh okay. Tomorrow then find.." Abit disappointed but got over it quite fast after I hung up the call. Slacked at Sinman house till 11PM++ and actually planned to chill but Zisheng and Jacky was too tired. So in the end, I went over Minkuan's house and transfered Worship songs into my phone.
Watched videos from youtube and slack till about 3.20AM before I have my long walk home. Zisheng planned to play badminton the next morning around 7AM and told him I'll be there. Slept for less then 3 hours, my alarm went off.. It's 6.45AM..
Saturday, 31 May 08
Sms-ed Zisheng to confirm weather the game in still on or not. But he told me the kids didn't phone him yet. So went back to bed and woke up around 8AM and notice Zisheng had miss called me twice. Packed my stuff up and bike-ed off to meet them.
Played badminton till 11AM and comes a sudden heavy rain. Rushed home and was already 1/2 soaked Zzz. Bathed and went over to meet her at Khatib. I planned to have a movie or something but she turned it down. End up we had breakfast at a coffee shop near her block and went to my house after that..
As I was tired due to lack of sleep, once reached home I showered and we slept. Woke up at 5.30PM, saw my mum and sliblings preparing to visit my grandpa at the hospital. We bus-ed to Admiralty and went separate ways as we're going Clementi to return the memory card we owe the handphone guy. On the way there, we was very happy and all until I took her phone and asked permission to take a look at her photo galleries. She took back the phone and said :" Don't want let you see." Asked her once why can't I view the photos? She looked at me with no emotions and said : " Just don't want to let you see."
I was upset and became moody. Kept quite and plugged in 1 side of my ear piece. She nudged me and said :" Everytime like that want. Abit jiu angry. You want see jiu see la, nothing much also ." Replied her :" Nvm, just now I was curious but since you don't want to let me see for the 1st time I asked you, whats the point of letting me see now?" " We meet only twice a week, go out also cannot happy happy de meh? Like that jiu angry" she said. Like as if it was my fault? I asked and you don't let me view the photo. Seeing I became moody, THEN you let me see the photo with those unhappy tone. Who will want to ? I feel that the thing will get worst if I looked at the photos as both is already unhappy. Looked at her and said :" Since you say got nothing why 1st time I asked, you rejected? It's not I don't want to be happy, if you just let me see the 1st time without any words said bu shi hao liao right? Why have to go through so many things then bu shuang bu shuang de let me see? Maybe I'm tired cause so I tend to be moody. I do not have enough sleep. Next time don't see jiu don't see lo, don't want us to pick a fight over this small stuff. Your pekcek face is what I wanted to avoid all along cause I just want to see you smile." Finished my sentence and cuddle her a little.. She kept quiet and returned me a hug. To me it's like what are you hiding? Why can't I see the photos? Only when I Pekcek already then you let me see the pic? Whats the point?
Rest of the day was fine.. Just don't know whats the reason behind why she don't let me view the photos. O well.. Don't want to dwell in it. Sent her home around 10PM. Sit on the sofa and enjoy each other presence. Kissed good bye and went off when it was 10.30PM.
Went home and waited for Minkuan. He reached around 12AM -_- ZzZ Played guitar in the room and learned some stuff from him. Slept around 3AM that night.. Uber tired..
Sunday, 1 June 08
Woke up at 8.30AM and planned to have breakfast with Minkuan after he goes home and wash up. Ended up miscommunication with my dear mummy~ Our breakfast was canceled lol. Waited for Jack to wake up and plan what movie we're gonna catch. Watched Sex and the City at 4PM. Great good with good story lines but it's too much of what a M18 movie can see lol. Too much sex scenes.
She sms-ed me half way through my movie and asked how was movie. Replied her as per normal and when I took notice the sms content getting shorter, I replied :" Okay la. You enjoy your show, sms you when I reached home =) " Easiest way to end a sms since there's no content in between.
Had dinner at the food court while waited for Puiman to arrive. Chilled at StarBucks for awhile but went off early as Jack needs to book in at 8.45PM. Went home after that and talked to her on the phone and coax her to sleep as her lesson is at 8AM tml morning. After that talked to Demi on the phone till like 1AM I guess? Sian next day Monday.. Have to do tracing again..
Monday, 2 June 08
During my FYP, Kelvin called me and ask me out together with Minkuan. Went to Grand Copthorne Hotel to have Pizza =/.. Kelvin and Minkuan paid for me as I'm out of cash ... -_- ... The Pizza was delicious and thanks to Kel's special privileges, the total cost is only about $69 after 1/2 price. He worked there for 7 years long years both full timer and part timer O_o...
Here's some pictures taken there..
Don't misinterpret, I'm only acting.. LoL 
Photos all done by : Minkuan
LOLS
After the fantastic meal, we taxied to Summerset Mrt to meet up with Sinman. Train-ed home after that. Kel and Sinman damn sweet ar.. See liao jealous lols..
On the way home, she smsed me saying she's going to sleep and ask weather I want to give her a call or not. And so I did, talked for awhile and hung up. It was 9.30PM after I hung up the call. Reached home around 10.30PM.. My heart was telling me to phone her to see weather she's asleep already or not. But my brain told me not to.. End up. I called.. And I'm on the 2nd line.. She answered the call.
Ed: Mao I reached home already. Going bathe now. Haven sleep?
Jos: orh okay. Haven, now talking to bff.
Ed: Orh okay lo, I go bathe 1st .Sms you later then.
Jos: orh okay , Bye.
Ed: Bye.
Short talk.. But ya.. She can be frank if she wants to.. No point questioning her and quarrel over it.. Even at times I felt she's keeping something but.. Maybe I'll just give space and trust and she'll be truthfully and frank to me? Don't know.. Will see about how it goes..
Felt that my heart is been pressed down, I phone my heart listener, Millie (also treated her like my blood related sister) , and told her how I was feeling.. Did felt better after pouring it out. Don't want to bottle the troubles up and so I choose to pour out and forget about it. =)
Labels: Set aside miserable thoughs and enjoy what I still have..
Posted at 10:12 AM
i am 19 years old
