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Thursday, May 15, 2008



Wednesday, 14 May 08,
Didn't go for work as I've a serious headache. Sms her, Minkuan and Ann telling them I'm resting at home not going for work. She replied a sms telling me to rest well ,love you etc etc. Woke up about 1.45PM and it's raining heavily. Sms her asking whether she has taken her lunch and does she wants me to fetch her after school. She rejected me of cause, saying that Lijun (her bff) they all will accompany her to Admiralty and I can fetch her from there instead. Didn't felt as disappointed as I used to be.. Guess it's because I'm use to it after all this while.

Chat online with a few people and downloaded Counter-strike : Condition zero deleted scene from Steam. Minkuan said it's nice so I just downloaded it and give it a try. Plugged in my ear piece as I don't want to destroy the quite atmosphere. The game was interesting with some special missions. Time really flys when you put in your concentration in something. Especially games, work or even playing guitar ! XD

Soon I received a sms from her telling me she's at YewTee already and I bus-ed over to Admiralty MRT station. Sent a sms to Minkuan telling him I'll be heading Admiralty now and will meet him up over at the control station. She arrived shortly and I gave her a peck. She returned one to me. While waiting for Minkuan to arrive, I brought Milk Tea for myself as she don't want any. She was sweet holding my hand, stroking my back and all. Minkuan arrived shortly and we bus-ed to my house for guitar lesson XD On the bus she told me she's meeting Jonathan Tee (a guy I know) for dinner tomorrow. Guess she's the 1 asking him out for dinner. O well.. She did asked me along about I turned her down. If I tagged along, 1st Jonathan will feel very odd and 2nd , not meeting her up is somehow an opportunity for her to get something for me on Friday, our 1 Year 6 Months. If I'm not there for the dinner, at least she can't say she had no time to get the present for me and such. Don't even know she will buy anything or not? I wont be buying anything for this time round and won't have high expectation of receiving 1 from her either.

Reached home and we started our guitar lesson. Minkuan taught me 1 of the many strumming style ↓↓ ↑↑↑↓↑↓↑. Practiced it but still ain't prefect as I kept missing some part of the strumming. Corrected the way of me pressing the 'G' Key, 2nd finger should be at 2nd fret instead of the 3rd. Had dinner after the short guitar lesson. She did tried to learn Qing Tian but after awhile, she claims that her finger tips hurts. Did make the effort to rub her finger gently and taught her how to pluck Qing Tian with my sister's guitar. Enjoyed the time we're together learning how to play guitar from Minkuan.

Half way through our dinner, she said she wanted to drink water as the chilli was too spicy. So I walked to the fridge to get a bottle of Honey drink for her and back to her side. While opening the bottle of drink, she hugged me. Returned a hug and asked what happen? She didn't answer me and continued hugging me. I felt I was loved by her.. So deeply all of a suddenly.. She took the drink and gave me a smile. I smiled, sat down and carry on with my dinner while Minkuan was outside installing guitar pro for me. Thanks Bro XD

After Minkuan transfer DJ max 2 into my brother's computer upon my sister's request, we walked to Admiralty. And Minkuan went to take bus 912 as he wasn't feeling well with the flu pestering him. We then train-ed from Admiralty to Khatib had little talks but non about whats happening in her school. I was fine with it. In the lift, she came over and gave me a hug followed by a kiss on the lips.. Really did felt that she's back like last time.. Just like the way we used to be.. Said good bye to her after she went into her house and I traveled home.

Gave her a call when I reached home. I was on the 2nd line.. I hanged up immediately and my mind starts to run wild... Thinking of those negative stuff again, my mood starts to turn foul and couldn't rest my mind.. Less then a min, she missed call me. Called her back and she told me she was on the phone with her dad. After a short talk, I said good night to her and hung up the phone. Frankly speaking I don't know to believe her or not... Kept wondering is she lying to me or not. Why can't I just trust her but have to suspect her all over? Why can't I just trust my girlfriend? But.. Felt retarded after all those thinking.. Can't sleep because all those thoughts is cycling inside my head.. You won't believe this.. I meditated myself to sleep after that.. It's the 1st time meditating works for me again, kept my mind clear and all of a sudden I was asleep...

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