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Thursday, May 22, 2008



Wednesday, 21 May 08,
I was quite occupied yesterday blogging and with some of the office work. Near the end of the day around 5.40PM, I sms to ask where is she gonna have her dinner. She told me that she would be having her dinner with Lijun. Didn't ask much after that and told her to enjoy and be home early.

After work, which was 6.30PM due to last min work again, I walked to Jurong MRT station with Angie, Farhana and Ann. Taught Angie how to play with the 2X2 cube but I think.. I ain't a good teacher lols. Received a sms from her asking have I finished my work and such. Told her I had just knocked off from work and heading Jurong. She said she'll be going home to change before she goes out for dinner and also asked where will I be having mine. Told her what she wanted to know and ended off the sms by asking her to sms me when she reached home. Anything just give me a call. There's no reply -_- Zzz

Reached home I bathe and practiced my strumming. That was about 8.20PM I guess? Received a sms from her asking have I taken my dinner or not and said she just started eating. Did felt that she made the effort to ask all of this things. Told her I've yet to eat mine and she reminded me not to skip my dinner. She do cares for me.. =)

Around 9.20PM, she reached home and asked me to give her a call. Chat on the phone and asked hows her day etc. Told her that I'll be having a chilling session later with my buddies and wants me to send her 4 sms. 1) Before I go out to meet them, 2) On the way home, 3) Reached home and 4) Going to sleep. Agreed upon her request and continued talking. Did complain to her that why ain't she talking and she voiced out saying she's too tired after the long day to respond. Coax her to sleep I sent her a good night message and this what she replies :" Heh. Sorry k I'm feeling tired. Love you mao mao pie (it's mao mao + sweetie pie) . Good nights." It's been a long time since I see her sms-ing me this word sorry.

Met up with my buddies at Admiralty Macdonald's at 11.20pm. Shifted to the fitness corner around 12AM once we're done eating. Listening to one another problems, past , family background etc. Everything we could talk about we'll start the topic and talk. Did some exercise while chatting also LOL. Love the chilling session we had. Wonder when will we 4 meet up again as Minkuan it's going army and such. Things gonna change a little and adjustment have to be made.Went home around 3.30AM, don't know how am I gonna survive working hours tomorrow with my tiredness lols.

Didn't felt as bad as I used to be recently. Compared to last time, which I'll get miserable over the things she does and worried just too much about every single thing she does etc. So easily affected by her. Even chatting on the phone, Sms or going out with her friends, my mind will run wild and kept thinking what is she doing right now. Will those guys try to get close to her, did she sit properly when she's wearing skirt, did she cover up her chest area when she bent down etc. Did made me felt very exhausted and crazy .. Slowly, I'm learning to let go of the excess worries I have, trying to have my own stand rather then leaning on her.. By doing all this, I hope it can mold my character, strength my mind set and improving myself as a person. Hopefully she can feel my maturity that I'm no longer a small boy who gets jealous over little stuffs and able to love her the way she wanted to feel. And finally, I wanna make her feel that she can lean or even be dependent on me and I'll be the guy she can hold on to in the future..


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