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Wednesday, May 7, 2008


Yesterday night after my work, I meet up with MinKuan and was totally aimless of where to go chill. Met with ZiShen around 10pm and chat. Somehow I was thinking of those negative again and ZiShen talk sense into me. He said there's a problem there and everytime I bring out a problem wanting to solve with her, she became angry and I just keep the problem. It's like a Hypocrite ar ! Why can't I just go to ask and seriously ask her do she still love me or not? Does she wants to continue ? How is she treating me the pass few months since ITE started and all.

But I just.. Don't have the courage to do so as I still feels that she loves me. MinKuan then added in, we already told you just to enjoy all the chilling session and your thoughts went wild thinking all over again? Thinking can change nothing if the outcome is expectedly to be a bad one . And IF it's not? You're being a hypocrite in front of her acting to be happy but you're NOT ! I told you to give space to her. I see can that happening, BUT YOU are not giving TIME and SPACE for YOURSELF ! She enjoy herself why can't YOU !? We did our exam paper and just all you need to do is be positive, enjoy yourself and wait for the result .. Which is her reaction.. MinKuan even said that he knows I can do it and just do a blog vent my anger and sadness over. EVEN no 1 reads it, IT'S TOTALLY FINE !!!

Those really did struck my head deep .. As my buddies they are just being frank to me.. and thats the truth. They won't want me to think as it's like → I'm now cutting my own wrist hurting myself because I'm THINKING WAY TOO MUCH !

Actually during the chilling session, I plan to meet MinKuan to swim the next morning but drop the idea as there's nothing we can do after swimming session -.- So after the session, I walked home and ended my day after I bathe.

Woke up 7.45AM and back to work at Jurong ._. Kept those words my buddies told me and just work my day through and created this blog while working. LoL. My first ain't that bad after all . After work I went over her house to fetch her. Saw her dad and he was on the phone confirming the locations of the houses at SengKang. Was upset to hear she's really gonna move over and they'll looking at those houses on coming Sunday.

We taxi-ed to my house to have dinner. Once we reached my house, I bathed and she was lying on the bed. Opened her arms to me and hugged her on the bed. Slept for about 30mins with her in my arms. She really did put her phone away this time, really enjoy the dinner and time spent. Fed her watermelon after dinner on my bed and cuddle her in my arms. Had a little bed fight. While cuddling her, I asked her :" What do you see in us? " She said:" Future.. " This word is just too overwhelming for me now. Felt her love rejuvenating from within my heart but I'm still not sure..After she went home.. The happiness was over and I'm back to my old self.. At least now i learn not to think so much and just let it be.. She also told me on Friday she's going out with 2 groups of friends, 1st group is her secondary school friends, in the afternoon and 2nd, her ITE friends, at night and will be home before 11pm. And all I told her and did was, enjoy yourself, be careful when you're out there, don't stay out too late and smiled at her.. Thats the space, freedom and trust she wants and expected from me..

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